Making the decision to change
The first day of the rest of my life:) Getting out of denial and trying to figure out how...and how many times do I have to get to this point and realize that I shouldn't let it get this bad? Tears and breakdowns. I fall apart too often when I have too much stress. Does the pain from life ever stop? I can see it in my little girl...she's angry and she really doesn't know why...over eating does something to the brain...today I only ate crackers....literally. somedays I dont eat at all and others I binge like I've never eaten before.....I know its not good for me and its a crazy way to live but how do I manage something that I feel is out of control?
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On my way to work....scared and worried....its a very stressful environment and its just a meeting....not sure I want to go but I need too....even though its my vacation. I have a monthly meeting and then a check off to do...
Wow- you and I sound a lot alike. Ive been on a biz trip for the past few days. I have a really hard time managing my anxiety. Even with meds it is still a bit of a prob. I have driven an hour to work and then sat in the parking lot debating whether or not to go in or just go back home!
I wish I had more advice. Just know you\'re not alone.
I go back to work tomorrow...not looking forward to it....somedays I just want to quit. Great ppl but then there are some not so great ppl.....makes me sad that some ppl feel they have the need to play games.....never had a work environment like this before...my husband had talked about it but I never had to deal with it before.... waiting to decide what to do since we have bills to pay.