Making the decision to change

The first day of the rest of my life:)  Getting out of denial and trying to figure out how...and how many times do I have to get to this point and realize that I shouldn't let it get this bad?  Tears and breakdowns.  I fall apart too often when I have too much stress.  Does the pain from life ever stop?  I can see it in my little girl...she's angry and she really doesn't know why...over eating does something to the brain...today I only ate crackers....literally.  somedays I dont eat at all and others I binge like I've never eaten before.....I know its not good for me and its a crazy way to live but how do I manage something that I feel is out of control?