M/C Thoughts

Thank you all for the hugs, the love and the support during this extremely difficult time. I know in the days ahead, I'm going to lean on my DS sisters a lot to help heal and get through this grief. Tomorrow is my D&C. They will do an ultrasound just before just to make sure my baby really is gone. I need to make sure there is absolutely no mistake. I know nothing will change, but I just need that reassurance. As sick as this sounds, there is a part of me that wants to hold onto this baby just a while longer....even though I know this baby has passed, I am struggling with the idea they are going to take him or her out of me tomorrow. They said they can tell us the sex, but I don't think we want to know. Maybe those of you that have had the undeserving misfortune of having a m/c probably can relate to my feelings and will tell me all of these feelings are normal. After tomorrow, the road to healing will begin and DH and I will need to re-evaluate where go from here, and how to live our lives knowing children may never be a part of it. For now, I just need to get through tomorrow though....
Love to all xoxoxo