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my illness is flaring up.
Mental wrong turns and just a fractured sense of self. I may be feel rebuffed a little but I have the agency to reframe my perspective on my actions. I am useful here and alacritas and that is something. Days are passing and though it may be the way my filter is working today and not entirely the truth the way I feel I am to certain people and definitely not across the board here I know and am happy with the way I have been here and what I have given. Everyone has their job here and yes it is just another hierarchy here like it is at work or life. I'm reminded of Eckhart Tolle and his group that he advises how to live. Life really is the same all over but also just different players. Lol
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I'm sorry that your illness is flaring up, Mark. You just went through a huge transition and are learning a whole new routine. You are doing remarkably well (a lot better than I would have done :)), but I know that interacting with many new, different people can be exhausting and a little triggering at first. I agree with Tolle, but how we react to/process the same life can be different. I hope you have/make time for a lot of self-care today so that you can right your ship. Sending prayers, a hug, and good vibes.
Thanks Susan!!
I agree with gr8ful1. You have been through a major life change so go easy on yourself. Are you still in touch with your therapist? You will be okay. Just hang in there and I willl be praying for you.
Thanks Becky!!!