Lovin It

I woke up this morning feeling fantastic and my head was clear. What a difference today has been! I have been eating ALL day and felt energetic enough to run a marathon! 

Its been a long time since I've felt this way! 

This is what it feels like to be able to think and speak with clarity! To be able to actually function! If I'm feeling this way tomorrow too I'm going back to work for Thursday and Friday. I hope this feeling sticks around! Not a tear drop today! No anxiety! No worries! No stress! I parented today! I spoke without stuttering! No racing thoughts! No negative thoughts! Today was a beautiful day! I cant wait to get back out there! 

I'm actually alert living in the moment and not the past! Or living in a daydream! There is no fog anymore and my gitters have not been present at all today. I'm just loving it! 

Fingers crossed this feeling doesn't go away! 

Yesterday I was going to go to the hospital. Today I feel great! It's pretty fucked up but I'll take it! 

I want to actually get up early enough to go for a run tomorrow. 

Here's to hoping this feeling doesn't go away!