Love... It's a very big word..

I can't breathe...... like... I am.. I'm actually breathing probably normally.. but.. It feels like my lungs are empty.. like.. There is no more air to breathe...... A guy I've been kinda interested in just told me he loves me..... I played it off like I didn't really catch it.. and he didn't really mention it much afterwards. He had mentioned drinking a little alcohol earlier so I'm trying to blow it off as just being the alcohol.. when I drink I want to tell everyone how much I love them.. But.... I'm honestly freaking out a little bit.... And I feel the need to distance myself as much as possible and get away.... But.. I don't want to... I want to learn to let people in.. And I was doing alright... Until those three little words... Now I am panicking... And all those bad depressing feelings/thoughts are flooding my brain.. ) : I want to cry..... ugh... 
My day wasn't too bad.. some rough moments but overall good. Took my nephew trick or treating. Dressed up. Was nice. Spent the day with my dad, even though he frustrated me a lot.. And until now, I managed to stay pretty happy, considering.. And it's like every minute that passes I just feel worse... Maybe I should sleep.. gotta be up super early... idk..