Love? honesty?

Have decided to move to tumblr permanantly. have decided i dont want help.i dont want people reading my issues and feeling sorry for mehave realised i want to tell the world i feel like killing myself. and have NO ONE care.sick and tired of people getting sick of me cause they cant fix meSo im going to be happy and full of joy and just be the brightest lil peice of sunshine you ever did see.and when im home alone be black.
so right now, even if you asked me not to lie and to tell you how i am, whatevr my mood i would tell you im fucking dandy!!!
because this way. i wont hurt the ones i love. :/ God love... who do i love? my bf...  the rest, im going to have to get bck to you when the rest of my heart can be separated from the floor, inflated and gotten the foot prints wiped off it.