LOVE and variability
I really have such variability in my mindscape that LOVE really catches me and conquers those times when I am not self possessed or together. It helps me be amongst others and be understanding and be of service.
I thought about my Dad’s motto 'keep quiet confidence' and I thought about my scientific side again, and his answers in life, my answers in life and my comrades’ answers in life and I realized we all have our own answers. At the same time we're considerate of that in each other. I’m struggling a bit not to crush myself as I think about this. But this is now where I’m at. Living in the reality and understanding that we all have our different answers and it has opened me up to seeing the dimensions of life.
Dimensions in myself and the others around me.
Happily, I’ve started to realize that I’ve created a 'culture of one' here for myself here in Maryland and in life and it’s really getting good.
The monastery is a snug place to be but I’ve also built a life for myself on top of that. Places I like to go - things i like to have - people around town
that I know - and the community here and my Blue.
My desire for freedom was big today but
my acknowledgment that it’s freedom that I seek with also a very secure snug background to my life here at the monastery is also the case. One makes perhaps for a succesful other. An important point to consider.
They’re throwing me back into doing services and I’ll do it.
I’m back in my room now. Definitely was feeling rage in service tonight but I was aware of it and bypassed my usual spinning without awareness.
Again, I conduct Sunday service tomorrow.
Right now I am rejoicing at being back in my room - Writing this journal is exactly where I want to be :).
I administered my first confession today with my godson. He really wanted to talk about things
and I think it went well.
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That's cute....Having given confession to your godson. I can just picture that. Great journal, as always.
It reads like you really felt at home today sweetie
It's so nice that your 1st confession was your godson...xo
Thanks Bob and Jan!
you sound like a man in danger of balance, markus. congratulations! ! !
What a huge step forward and to have the experience of that with your godson! Hurrah!
Thanks Arfie and Mid!