Loss and depress seem to go hand in hand don't they?

Loss and depression seem to go hand in  hand.  Loss of my late-husband and my job - depression is part of the package.  Trying to find a new job and new mate is rather difficult and extremely hard these days.  I have been looking for a job for over 3 years with many many interviews but no bites.  I have my eyes open for a man in my life but so far no luck in that department.  I have Dave in my life for companionship but he is not my life long mate for me.  I am on to free online dating services but no luck.  The only men I find is the ones living in the USA and I live in Canada.  It is too far for a long distance relationship.  I am in no rush as I would rather have a job and money in my life than a mate at the moment.  Things could change.  
I need a job or I always feel at the back of my head that I could lose my apartment.  The water/sewer taxes are due at the end of March, property taxes in the beginning of July and my house insurance at the beginning of July.  If something doesn't come soon, I could lose the apartment.  
I just want to get rid of December.  Get Christmas over with for me.  It is the saddest period of my life and want to go through it quickly.  January is another month and another year.
How is everyone coping with the Christmas and New Years celebration?  from Diane B.