Losing My Mind
My precious Evelyn...mommy doesn't know what to do but to ask you to watch over your daddy and allow him to find the peace that he needs to allow him to love mommy the way mommy deserves to be loved. Daddy is unsure of whether he wants to continue his life with mommy. It was already devastating losing you but now mommy must endure the pain of losing your daddy. It has been a tough road to travel and now another obstacle has been thrown in for mommy to conquer. I miss you so much my darling and the pain is still so fresh. Maybe, just maybe, mommy is not good enough for daddy to love. Mommy just hopes and prays that one day your daddy will find someone to love him as much as mommy. Mommy just wants your daddy to be happy, even if it is without mommy in his life. Mommy will forever love you and your daddy. Please give mommy some extra strength and hope to get through losing you and now your daddy. I love you so much my Evelyn and I will always love your daddy with all my heart and soul. Love you both so much.
Your loving and heartbroken mommy....
Your loving and heartbroken mommy....
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I am so sorry you are not getting the support you need, and that you and Evelyn\'s daddy are not on the same page. Its pain upon pain. I have been there, Sinza\'s daddy left me before she was even born. You are a strong mummy, but sometimes we all need a little help. I pray you will find someone to support you during this hard time, a friend, family member, religious leader, therapist..whatever works for you. Please dont try to tough through this alone. We are here to listen to you as well.
Celian, I am so sorry that Sinza\'s daddy did what he did to you. You are a wonderful and strong mommy yourself. How did you get through it? I don\'t know what to do. I am so confused and frustrated. I love him so much and we get along so well but now knowing what I know, I can\'t wait around for him to decide. Part of me wants to stay with him and not lose him, and the other part of me tells me that it\'s not fair waht he is doing to me and how much longer does he expect me to wait around and pretend everything\'s ok. I do have a co-worker that has been great and listens to me as I cry. I have worked all my life and have no friends. I go to church every Sunday to pray for my baby but no one there in particular to speak with. I haven\'t seen a therapist because the last one I went to told me I have to find my own. I have been frustrated trying to find a group that matches with what I have been through. I really don\'t have anyone. You guys in this support group have been there for. For that, I appreciate it so much. I don\'t know what I am going to do if I lose my husband. I\'m already a mess with the loss of our baby and now this. So lost.