looking for a new passion

I went to work and felt so empty and depleted...I contemplated some things -

like 'why was a feeling so lost an menial now?' "why was I believing that to be the truth/"

Even in the face of it - I realized I needed to define from within...

It built me up some - but then as I worked some more, I thought about the idea that 'all these mentalizations here'

I really need to find another outlet - a way of getting that happiness in a way that produces something,

a new passion.... Something that replaces this focus on sadness - I need something that grounds me too..

but maybe save the passion for some things - and the grounding for others.

I just saw an interview with Mike Posner and really liked him. I like what he had to say about life

and I liked his answers to deal with things. He's suffered a lot but he's making lemonade.