Looking for a break..
I just want a break, from fighting with my teenage son and stupid skin cancer, from being Codependent. I feel I have aged so much in the last 2 years, this is the 1st time I have every felt like I'm getting old. I saw a picture of me in 2006 then 1 from 2009, you can just see the lines and almost the unhappiness and angst that I feel. I working on them all, but at the moment just worn out, just need a break. I think when I get my son thru 10th grade and summer school, I will have him spend a month with his Dad, I love him dearly, but he just being such a pain, failing classes, disrespectful to such a exterme, he's almost 16 and has the worst Tempertantrums. Skin Cancer is back, which sucks, won't know what treatment will be until June 2. I'm still dealing with the 1st surgery. I just want to take a time out..get some prespective. Patience, Patience not my strong suit.. I will survive...I think.. Thinking of all of you,Diana
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Sending the boy to his Dad might be the best for you both. You need time to heal and he could use a change of scene. Don\'t let this decision cause you any guilt. A healthier Mom will benefit him too. Stress can do a real number on our bodies. Try not to let it get you. I haven\'t found a way to avoid it myself, but I am trying. Hang in there!
Jeanne
Diana, I am so sorry you are having such a tough time. I do know about those teenagers, you want to kill them but you still love them so much. My youngest is 15 and WOW I don\'t believe the mood swings! She can make me feel on top of the world and at the same time, wanting to choke her...
If you need some time, you do deserve that! It is hard for a momma to put herself \"first\" but sometimes we have to. I think it may do your son some good to be at his Dad\'s. His Dad should help in the raising at some point and your son may see how his tantrums affect you after he isn\'t with you every day. Time apart does make us think and too often kids don\'t give their moms credit unless she isn\'t there for a bit! Please don\'t feel guilty about that! You may look at it as a healing and learning time... it would make your bond stronger.
I hope you have the best of luck with the skin cancer and definitely relate to the wait...I can\'t get back in to my dr \'til Oct. It really stinks! I feel we should charge the drs. a \"waiting fee\" because of how they are!! Would you join my group if I could get one started for just that?
Hun, I do care and pray that you find some relief and peace as soon as you can. If there is anything I can do, p/m me and let me know! I no longer get updates in my e-mail since the ds site changed so it\'s hard for me to know what is going on with a lot of my friends. I hate that and I hate that I haven\'t been here for you.
God\'s Blessings,
P&L, Linda