lonliness

i fl so alone.  ive got this great big stomach.  im frumpy,not sexy.  i have little interest in sex.  i fl like theres a divide bet my hus & i.  i want him 2 come 2 bed, but he doesnt "woo" me so then im disappointed.  & think he doesnt want me.  he says he does, he just wants sex so easy.  he doesnt do anything 2 get me ready.  but im supposed 2 jump @ the chance 2 satisfy him, but get little or no satisfaction myself?  thelast time it felt like i was doin him a favor.  itd just bnso long i was determined that we were gonna have sex.  butdid nothing 4 me & i just waited 4 it 2 b over.  ikept hopingid fl a spark.  when i started2 it quickly dissipated.  i think i was starting 2 fl something...thenhe  came & it was over.  i dont fl i shdhave 2 beg him 2 plzme...heshd want 2.  right now i dont even want 2 sleep w/him...wish i had my ownbed.  does anyoneknow if birth control pills can effect ur sex drive?