Lonely - I feel so lonely without Smokey
I feel so lonely without Smokey. We did everything together, had fun, laughed and got in fun kind of trouble. It's not the same without him. There is a big huge hole in my heart without Smokey. My heart aches for Smokey. He was the love of my life. I will find no other like him. Smokey was one in a million. If I ever did find another person, it would be nice to find someone with money so we didn't have to worry about it. Smokey was a kind, loving, generous and nice person but we were not rich and were struggling. It was funny he supported me in quiting my job. It was a horrible area of Vancouver and very not safe. Not many men would support their women this way but mine did. There will not ever be anyone else like him. I know it. If I ever did find someone in the future, he would be nice, kind and different from Smokey - I am just guessing, who knows or predicts the future except our Lord God Almighty. Life is peculiar and who would think that I would be a widow at 54. Who knew? This is a very tough curve ball that is for sure and a very long recovery process. Will I recover or heal from this very painful loss in my life. I feel like crying here so I will say until next I write. Good bye for now and have a nice evening.