lonely decision

as i sit and wait for my coffee to cool, my mind broods.
once upon a day in a place, i decided to be alone. no need for friends. no use for groups.then one day, not too far away, i decided to be friendly. say hello to you. give my number and an invite.but to no avail. no one calls. no one cares.NEVER make that decision, to be lonely. to be alone. once that's made, it's irreversible. you will be alone forever.
i hate people. i trust no one. i hurt. why?????