Lonely again.

I woke up today and I didn't want to. I was trying to sleep in all day to avoid all my pain. But, I can't go back to sleep now. I'm just really lonely now. I feel alone all the time now. No one to be around and no one to really love me anymore. I don't know why no one can just love me back. I don't understand it. I'm not too nice, I know that. I'm not a mean or rude person. I just don't understand because all I want is for someone to love me.
I have a boyfriend, but I feel like he's starting to not love me anymore. Or loving me less and less and less until he just leaves me. We're barely talking to each other right now and idk if he still loves me at all.
I really am just about to forget about everyone and just stay in my house. I'm just tired of everything and I was better when I stayed in my house in the first place.