Lonely?
Sometimes I just want to cry. I just simply want to cry. Maybe it will make me feel better, but I don't know. It's Friday so I have the weekend, but I also have a lot going on next week with regards to due dates. I'm kinda feeling down so I think that I may go stay with my mom for a day or two and relax and do dome homework. I like the fact that my parents are good friends. I can talk to them and they know what I am going through and they can offer me support.
Last night I had a lot of whiskey to drink and then I smoked a lot of pot and ate all of the junk food that I could find. I cleaned up everything in my room and now I am doing some laundry and then maybe I'll go over to my mom's house for a night or two. Oliver had surgery yesterday so he is somewhat sedated and he is wearing a cone on his hear to deter him from licking himself. Mom and I think that we may go to "Unknown." Then I think that I am going to go do some writing for the assignments due next week. I plan to do some studying for biology on Saturday and Sunday.
I cant wait to learn more about the brain. I hope that I can learn well and get into a great graduate school and become a part of the field of medicine and Make my dad proud... and my mom too.
I had two cups of coffee and I am still pretty tired. I think that I am going to have to use a Rockstar or a 5 hour energy or both. That's what I like about mom's she gives me veggies and makes dinner and we have a lot of fun together. I don't know why I am journaling this because there is nothing really to say right now. Personally, I think that I'm lonely and that's why feel the need to journal and exert my feelings via writing.
But what is the meaning of loneliness? I have family, thankfully, and they are always behind me, but when I want to go out and have a good time with friends, I don't seem to have any anymore. I have neighbors at school but they are nowhere near friends. I have considered going back to being a RA, but that is a lot of work and a lot of stress. There are only a few people who I'll actually call to do something or go out with and they are very busy people as well.
I think that I am going to go now and see what I am going to do for the rest of the day.
Goodnight moon.
Last night I had a lot of whiskey to drink and then I smoked a lot of pot and ate all of the junk food that I could find. I cleaned up everything in my room and now I am doing some laundry and then maybe I'll go over to my mom's house for a night or two. Oliver had surgery yesterday so he is somewhat sedated and he is wearing a cone on his hear to deter him from licking himself. Mom and I think that we may go to "Unknown." Then I think that I am going to go do some writing for the assignments due next week. I plan to do some studying for biology on Saturday and Sunday.
I cant wait to learn more about the brain. I hope that I can learn well and get into a great graduate school and become a part of the field of medicine and Make my dad proud... and my mom too.
I had two cups of coffee and I am still pretty tired. I think that I am going to have to use a Rockstar or a 5 hour energy or both. That's what I like about mom's she gives me veggies and makes dinner and we have a lot of fun together. I don't know why I am journaling this because there is nothing really to say right now. Personally, I think that I'm lonely and that's why feel the need to journal and exert my feelings via writing.
But what is the meaning of loneliness? I have family, thankfully, and they are always behind me, but when I want to go out and have a good time with friends, I don't seem to have any anymore. I have neighbors at school but they are nowhere near friends. I have considered going back to being a RA, but that is a lot of work and a lot of stress. There are only a few people who I'll actually call to do something or go out with and they are very busy people as well.
I think that I am going to go now and see what I am going to do for the rest of the day.
Goodnight moon.
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hi little moonshoe,i woke thismorn thinkn of u an still am so i thought id write even with the coffee and fag still hangin out me mouth,eeewww so sexy hahahhaha.im sorry ur feeling down mate.i know it sux.its so cool that ur close with ur folks an even better they stayd frends.i hope i got that the rite way round?that they are still frends with each other?if so hahahhahha it must turn ur stepmom insideout,good.u will always feel a bit shit an down afta the whisky and the pot mate,its wot grogg-alcohol does,ul notice eveytime u hav a binge ul b quite down for up to 3 days.well thats wat happens to me.bee pollen is great for this and as long as u dont hav an alergy take up to 7 caps an man,ul feel like superman,yeha!for real mate.those bees sur got sum kick ass energy going on!o dear poor oliver,wat was the operation for?an those bloody energy drinks will hurt ur heart.aahhh arent moms wonderful hahhaha veggies are good!i do hope the rest of ur day was good an hey wats wrong with hanging out with ur mum,its algood buddy cos she loves u.