living in my head

that's pretty much where i live doncha know......in my head.
i told myself to pace......pace myself today, hold on and help will be there.  woke up at 3 am and wanted to request that the executioning guards of merry old England remove the head of this tooth aching queen.  i was dying in my bed.  no comfort to be found.
i traipsed from the lab to the doctor's appt. ........i was so zonky, lack of food and sleep and people who speak brain fog........i want to live amongst my own kind please.
i made it to the dental place.  i completed their 12 page app online via their computer and then waited in a dental chair for an hour.  they don't have childsize x-ray bite dealies and i can't acccomodate an adult size x-ray bite dealie.  i have a small face, small jaw......etc.  so anyways.....i wait and the good and very friendly kind faced doctor appears.  it feels like all this air, this carefully held in stowed away waiting for the cavalry to arrive and save me air in my lungs has just been released and then he says i can't do the procedure.  you have to go see an endodontist.
this isn't my 1st rodeo, so i had already anticipated this situation.  i specifically asked if they did their root canals and crowns in house.......all of them the woman said absolutely, we do everything in house.  today the doctor said we cannot do the very top last tooth in a tooth row......we can't and we don't.......i burst into tears.
i can't take codeine or hydrocodone or well hey you name it and i'm allergic to it in the pain relief family.  he says the tooth is not in need of antibiotics, i guess i should feel relieved........but i don't.  i am now worried that they don't know their stuff.  i can't bite down, it is so sore and tender and i can't eat, chew, etc............ears hurt, throat hurts....glands hurt.  oh well never mind........i busted out bawling like a newborn without a momma. 
they made an appt for me for in the morning with an endo........but then she said it was for a consultation.......i said aren't they going to do the procedure?  1st they have to do a consult and then make an appt for the procedure, i HURT. she told me to call them to ask them to allot the time..........i hate people right now..let's just suffice it to say that i think for the money i paid for the x-rays that they couldn't take i think they could have set me up for an appt if the consultation proved that i needed a root canal...........help me.  she said don't you have a cell phone?  i said sure i do, they deactivated me for not making enough calls........the woman was already not listening to me, she blew me off...........helped the next person.  i need a little more attn maybe than someone else......like say listening..................i bought some pain stuff and i'm gonna stick it in my mouth and go to bed.  i shoulda bought whiskey like clint eastwood.........but nooooooooooooo i bought generic pain relief lite crap.  life sucks and then it eventually levels out again.  sorry i'm sitting on the pity pot and i want some food again one day this week.  boo hiss boo hiss.  i was being so calm and good and then i hit wah wah ville..............................................sorry i'm pitiful in pityville, pa pitying my poor bad self..........gotta go to bed.