Living HELL

So, today wasn't the best day...My friend told me at lunch on school...that she was a healthy girl because she was going to eat an apple, and that because of what i was going to eat (which wasn't much, considering I hadn't had anything for breakfast) i was getting fat...then she told me...it's a "JOKE". Well... I DON'T THINK SO!! It DID hurt me...I felt awful in that moment, and I hate having to look strong so that everyone thinks tham i'm OK, but i'm NOT!!...Lately i've been feeling really fragile, and what she told me just broke me....so when i came home...i'm not really proud of saying it...after 3 days of not hurting myself...I DID IT AGAIN!!!....it's so awful how ONE comment may hurt so much!!...even more than me hurting myself...