Living day to day
Hello this is Andrew Jackson and I'm living day to day. Well I made it to memphis but I lost my job. But I was so busy trying to get here that I knew it was a huge risk. I so sick of hearing that I'm not this or that. Like Ann and John's life so good. Ann have put everybody else above her marriage. Bring some real petty bs and something. But her worthless family are a plague to them. Then my brother John, cheating with every nasty ass girl around. I mean he is going through the motion about stuff. But he has become somewhat bitter in the way. He should I put his foot down years ago. But him pushing stuff on the side . I real that my brother is pretty ruthless when it come to things. But he no longer care. Then I have to come back to that in the house. I really enjoy being on my own. I enjoy being by myself. But I had a feeling that I wasn't doing to hot about the job but I didn't know that they was going to get rid of me. I do feel that my anxiety got the best of me. I was so busy trying to catch up. They was so busy trying to get a body in there. Man all of my feelings. I really didn't know that they was going to get rid of me.
Maybe since I was so new. It like giving me the house for free even though I don't deserve. I move my whole life to be here. I really don't have many option. What they say, oh join the military so you won't sleep on the street. I don't want to be a burden to anybody. That is why I choose my exit from cali. I'm here to be here till it warm. I like being in my hotel and doing my own thing.Know I got to go back to John and Ann's house and heard that bullshit. But it is there house. I know I need to listen to advice and I have a hard time doing that. But I'm trying to do better. But I take the critism and trying to rise above it. But I'm like damn, will I ever be good enough . All i ever wanted to do is just work and go to the gym. Now as for Mary, man I can't call it. Sometime I want to be with her and sometimes I don't. She has pictures of me on the wall but she won't talk to me. I don't care anymore. I do care but I need to survive and have a roof over my head. Man whatever to everything else.Man one thing I'm proud of this year is that I'm getting more positive. I enjoy life so much more. I understand everyday is a gift from God.
Maybe since I was so new. It like giving me the house for free even though I don't deserve. I move my whole life to be here. I really don't have many option. What they say, oh join the military so you won't sleep on the street. I don't want to be a burden to anybody. That is why I choose my exit from cali. I'm here to be here till it warm. I like being in my hotel and doing my own thing.Know I got to go back to John and Ann's house and heard that bullshit. But it is there house. I know I need to listen to advice and I have a hard time doing that. But I'm trying to do better. But I take the critism and trying to rise above it. But I'm like damn, will I ever be good enough . All i ever wanted to do is just work and go to the gym. Now as for Mary, man I can't call it. Sometime I want to be with her and sometimes I don't. She has pictures of me on the wall but she won't talk to me. I don't care anymore. I do care but I need to survive and have a roof over my head. Man whatever to everything else.Man one thing I'm proud of this year is that I'm getting more positive. I enjoy life so much more. I understand everyday is a gift from God.
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