living a solitary life and identity

yesterday I was sound. The sanity informed me that I had the need to not be alone

and as well that I had the space in my life to fulfill those things that would be to my liking

and not just about the duties..

I woke up this morning - not feeling so sound. But I had the ability to tell myself

to be humble.  To do the things I needed to do and that I routinely do - and still

after all that, I still knew  needed to be in touch with friends and family.

I decided to go to the local catholic church (I'm baptised Greek Orthodox) but 

I feel church is like Dr. Who's Tardis - it can take you there.

So I went to church and had the whole place to myself. I heard the children at the dayschool

laughing and talking in the background. It was pretty.

I may live alone and have to provide for my special needs I still draw great strength in my life

from the family I have as well as the friends in my life.

Ultimately I give it up for them as they are my sounding board and my soul's comfort.

Blue too. 

I hope you guys have a terrific day! I am about to head out to my brother's house

for lunch. peace!

I still have the need to give my life direction, shape, form and so on..self responsible..

but at a certain point...