Little to no contact

It's been three weeks since my last visit. She has called many times but I ignore her calls because I know that she will pretend to be caring and loving, but then will fall into the same pattern of abuse once she has me hooked. Must stay strong even when brother and his girlfriend ask me to go visit.
I've learned that some of the feelings that have been plaguing me are guilt and shame. Must not feel shame or guilt of any sort. I am the victim, not the perpetrator. She has succeeded in making be feel low, unlovable, unworthy, but I must reverse that.