Little down... the weekend was too short with the hubby...

Only had Sunday off with the hubby. He had to work Saturday and Monday... I can't wait for this weekend it's his 3 day weekend... between last week and this we've only had a day or two off together and it gets lonely when you only have a 4 year old and a 15 month old to talk to.... Monday my hubby came home with a huge balloon. It was sweet. 2ft x 4ft.... flowers and a silly card that was more humorous than romantic... but, I enjoyed it a lot. We watch tv and ate some take out.... wasn't as romantic as I like and the day we did celebrate Valentine's (Feb 6th) it felt rushed... and that was on my part... I feel that 2-3hrs babysitting time is not enough... plus he was tired so when he's suggest lets do this or what about that I knew it was only for me and he was dog tired and sore from work... his job is VERY hard work!!!! So, I know... 2 more months and he'll have a lot less stress and so will I. But, fri-Mon. one of those days I'm thinking of planning a surprise re-Valentine's to make up for the one that didn't go well. So, I started to talk to my Mom via text since the un-announced visit a few days ago.... just texting things like what tv are shows coming back on etc.... but, I just texted her for a 2-3hr babysitting time fri-Mon.... one of those days just to do dinner and bowling with the hubby.... so, we'll see. If not maybe I can bother my neighbor to do so. she'd say yes faster than my Mom.... sad! so far 12 minutes no answer.... well I knew it.... it will go longer. She responded to the last 3 texts in a min. flat.... I swear she doesn't see herself as a grandma... I did all that for her dog. I've gone to her home minutes after serving dinner and my hubby getting home to sit at her home to get an estimate for her flooring in her home... yet she can't watch her own grandkids.... her ONLY grandkids. At this point it's getting more clear. I would love to move so I can be away from all these crappy people. I'm not sure if I want to put my neighbor on the spot... I hate being on the other end when that happens and don't want to do that to her even though she LOVES the boys. lol I'll have to think pretty hard. I want to not feel rushed and every time we go out I sneak a peek at the time or my text wondering if my best friend is texting me... even though tonight is her Valentine's and I have her kid from 3:45pm to 8:30pm..... I freak at 2hrs.... and if I went over the 2hrs.... even though she tells me eat watch a movie I feel it's eat but, "please don't watch a movie even though I'm saying that to you....  I really wanting to kick back on my own after i put my own hubby and kid to bed". (keep in mind my kids are angels at her house!!!!! so, it's not that their bad it's that she wants down time by herself is what I feel/know....) so, i hate my "i'm so nice I feel guilty and hate taking advantage of you thinking" when they honestly don't mind! lord I over think things!!!! it's been 25min. still no text from my mom... why did i even bother?