little bit ho, hum

Nothing really exciting happening. lately the only exciting thing that seems to excite me is my step meetings. nothing seems to be happening, and I'm feeling a little antsy. Jordie hasn't called about work. Everything is alright. Just not doing much. I went to the Sobriety Center today, and that wasn't exciting at all. I don't even know what Dillon wanted me there for. We did talk awhile, and he steped out a couple of times, but I just didn't feel needed there at all. all I did was read some, look on the computer a bit, and talk with Dillon. No one really came in. I phoned Bob to do some work tonight. All that really did was piss me off a bit. he tells me he'll meet me at this place, so I go there, and he doesn't show up untill hours later. Tells me he wants me to paint, and sand the walls. No paint there, and no sand paper. I found two small scraps of sandpaper outside, so I used that. I might as well have stayed home for what I got done. Just agravated me. I really don't like going to these places that I was at. the people that live there all have big mental issues. Most times I don't mind, but this one guy had this weird music on loud. You can't talk to them, because their just wacked. One guy thinks he hears Jesus talking to him, another was telling Bob that he was going to build this robot in his room, but it was a secret. then Bob wants me to clean the place for them. I never went over there to do their dishes, clean their washroom and toilet. I was trying to just not be rude, and tell Bob to go fuck himself. Frigging place was disgusting. Times like this I really think Bob is nuts too. I never understand why he rents out rooms to these type of people, and then clean up after them too. I was trying to practice program too tho, so I did bite my tongue. I just did what needed to be done as fast as I could. When Bob wasn't looking, I grabbed all the dirty pots, and the dirtiest dishes, and stuffed them in the oven and closed the door. The rest I just rinsed a bit and shoved them in the cupboard. If they don't want to clean them, they get what they get. anyway, another day sober. I do know that things will change soon. they always do. thank you, Lord.

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Yes they do change.......and mostly for the bettter fi you let them........hugs g