Like a Freight Train...
Well I stopped taking Xyprexa for sleep and stability due to the side effects. I take it intermittently with/without Prozac to get out of a funk; Xyprexa alone for ANY funk, Xyprexa AND Prozac for deep depression funk. But now, like a freight train, mania has taken over. I overshot the middle ground. First 5am Sun and Mon, 3am Tues and today 12:30 am. I go to bed around 9pm so it is pretty short sleep time now. The mania and a little euphoria has kicked in. But any good feeling is wasted because I am getting fatigued. This is a familiar cycle. I get to manage this the rest of my life, no doubt. Starbucks opens at 5am so I will be there and off to work. I am very fortunate to have flexible hours. I muse about what I would do with this time if I didn't work. It would be really hard. You ahve to do SOMETHING and since my family sleeps I have to stay pretty quiet. Ah.....notfound404
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What\'s your hobby? Something quiet you can do while your family is sleeping. Stamps, coins, reading.
hi notfound,,,you know when i have had my worse anxiety/insomnia....and been in a psychotic state, it was zyprexa that saved me too, at the time i had just gotten out of the hospital, and i was doing a 10 days of the partial day program...and i had to leave the group, because i was so, terribly bad...i hadn\'t slept in 4 days....and i was having a panic attack, they brought me to my pdoc\'s office and i was crawling on the floor gasping for breath...for a long time while wating for her,,,then a nice admin lady came and held me and walked me up and down the hall and talked to me to help me calm down....i was so afraid...and i knew i needed sleepl....and just wasn\'t sleeping....i was terrified i was goin go go another night without sleep, because i knew how bad i was getting.....and i didn\'t want to be in hell anymore...anyway, at the time i was on lithium and celexa...she uppped my lithium and also she gave me zyprexa,,she said take 5 mg in morning....and before bed take 5 mg...and if you don\'t go right to sleep take another 5 mg....well i did what she told me...and man after that 2nd 5 mg that night, i was out like a train hit me......thank god, and i kept doing this...and i began to sleep again...and come out of this terribel state i was in..it took time, but it happened....not found....maybe when you do feel mania coming on...or just plain anxiety and insonmnia..you should have some zyprexa on hand..so you can get your rest...and do not head into that deep dark hole....these days, i am doing all i can to avoid it........it is sooooooooooooooooo deep and soooooooooooooooo dark, and so terrifying.....there is no hope there......it feels like i\'m in hell......so i don\'t want to see anyone there notfound.....it is such a sad thing that we have to battle with this terrible illness....but if we take our meds faithfully, get our rest (like you said, you put yourself to bed at 9Pm, eat healthy and nourishing foods, exercise (i\'m not doing this at the moment....use too,,but want to start again soon) and journal, pouring our hearts out....., also i find that when i am angry, or am hurt....good to let it out.....rant and rave abuot it in your journal, or if your by yourself just let it go, scream, talk to your self....rant and rave to yourself...just keep ranting and raving..you know not found, with this illness....for me, i would much rather be an angry, ranting , raving fkr...then be curled up in a ball in hell......so for me, i don\'t care about what people say about anger......as long as my anger is not hurting anyone...i will continue to rant and rave when i need to, the other alternative is way to scary....also, laughter....i use this as another sword, my sense of humor has been a savior to me....if it is easily accesable, then just use it, use it all the time, as much as you can...if it is a little burried because of starting to get a little down,,,,then dig for it,,,,unbury it...because it will help you stay away from the ever so shunned sucking black pitt....So, just laugh....use your sense of humor.....my god, it has saved me lately....i really beleive if i didn\'t use it i would probably, no, definatly be dead right now...it is a medicine of the soul......and very, very powerful....anyway not found, thank you for being my friend....peace to you brother, yah, and i\'m glad working is good for you...and it helps you...i find working and or keeping very busy is very saving too. peace and love, maggie