light at the end of the tunnel

Still in early stage of separation after 24 years - only about one month in.   But very amicable split.  We love each other but don't want to continue hurting each other.  I am plunging myself into intensive weekly therapy to properly heal and mend my issues from the past.  I am going deep starting from my childhood ... year by year. .. great therapist.  Need to find out why I have such low self esteem, and seek happiness and approval from outside sources - which have caused me to be unfaithful.  I WILL fix myself . . . .and either get back with husband (neither of us ruling this option out :-)  ) or at the very least fix myself for myself and/or next relationship.  Feeling very positive and strong about my new journey.  No desire or intentions to date - going to work on myself and become the absolute best version of myself I can be!  :-)  :-)