life today

today i see the beauty in life,, im learning to forgive my self for past mistakes,, my daughter told me mom your already forgiven you just have to forgive yourself,, so im learning to forgive myself,, im blessed even when i hated him,, it comes to mind footprints in the sand,, i couldnt see or feel him carry me but he did and still is. im glad i have installed something good into my children,, they are all in church,, i know im blessed my children are happy for the most part and in good health,, im still standing and thats saying alot,, lord help me see less of me and more of you. he has also sent me a good man that loves me for me and i for him,, so im still a work in progress,, i may just be an old lump of coal but im gonna be a dimond someday,