Life may seem sad but i love it :-)

well, most of my life I was abused mentally, emotionally, and verbally. I really do not want to admit physically cause its still hard for me to admit to that. I have been having such great times in my life with friends and meeting couples..... I personally feel as if God is really shining in my life and working hard to make me happy. At first, i was depressed because my mother didnt want to talk to me. I feel as if theres a bad vibe from her when I stand in the room with her. She will not speak to me or communicate with me saddly, even make eye contact with me. Before I met Christ, i would be extremly low and blame myself for not being the perfect child. I know how my parents view me buit that is okay, God loves me for me, I have a new church family and i love every last one of them. I may not be able to share my fun experiences with my mother but that is okay since I have my church family now