Life is good

  Today I feel really good. Things are going well. Before I was thinking of returning to work earlier than what the Dr told me because I was worried about money being there, but now that's changed. I'm enjoying working with Bob and his nephew. I also enjoy not having to get up at 5 am. I like my time in the morning. It allows me to meditate, and do the things I need to. I enjoy going on D.S. in the morning and seeing how people are doing. That's become part of my routine now. Having coffee and breakfast is good to. Before I seemed rushed in the morning and necer ate breakfast. My eating was really getting poor, and I noticed I was loseing weight. I'm still not eating the best because of when I do work, but it's much better. I have my big bowl of Red River in the morning. My mom would have been so surprised. Me eating pourage, but I find it very good, and healthy too. I don't miss work at all. When I was there I found you always had to watch everything you did. Other employees, and customers seemed like they were always looking for things to report on you. It really wasn't a good feeling. One person in paticular really bothered me. She hardly ever worked hard, spent most of her time talking, but she at one time was deliberatly watching everything I did, and reporting it to my manager. I'm sure he even told her to do it. I kinda put two and two together after awhile and figured it out. I really had a hard time with that. I don't paticularly care for people that tattle tale to try and make things hard for others. I've been in jail, and there they call them rats. I don't like to use that term because I no longer am involved in that life style, but i couldn't help thinking of this lady as that. Would smile and talk nice to your face, but behind your back would be reporting everything you did under the sun. I find it really bad that someone that's just an employee the same as me would do this. I don't understand it at all. It's hard enough there with customers complaining all the time, without your co-workers trying to fuck you. Anyway, yea I most likely have a resentment about it. I have forgiven her, but I'm also not stupid and turn my back on her. You can forgive someone, but still not trust them, and that's how I deal with her. I know she's a sick person, and not all there, but I don't need to associate or be freinds. Anyway, it is nice not to be there. Everything is going good. I have money to pay everything, and Lil Jimmy is happy. I started using this other food that comes in a pouch, and he seems to really like it. It cheap too, but I hope it's good for him. I think it is, but I need to look into that. It's called Special Kitty. They have a whole line of products that are cheaper, and seem to be good. Anyway, that's about it for now. Lord I thank you for today, and the oportunity of being sober. Thank you for all your doing. Amen