life does get better dont ever forget that

so i am headed to this beach bar tomorrow with some friends...and i am actually looking forward to it! only slight anxiety about food...but i am packing a cooler with a few things i know i can eat...and i offered to drive so i will not be drinking...i am instead focusing on going and just being alive...enjoying the moment...because i am a little sad to report that i have spent so much of my time off scrambling to find another job so that i dont have to go back to GEICO....so this has not been the most relaxig vacation ever...it's like a count down to when i have to report to hell again....
something else i wanna vent about here is my digestive system....it's hit and miss...i know bulimia fucks with that system and i think it's getting better but sometimes especially right before i know i am going to be in front of people in a swimsuit i have to take a round of laxatives so i dont have a distended stomach the next day....it's so annoying and i know i have to limit my use of such products so my body doesnt become dependent...i just hope this gets better...
well i guess sometimes life's a beach....and other times u just go to the beach =)