Life Changes
I heard a song on the radio this morning . I have heard it before and once again, it spoke to me. It is a country song by Thomas Rhett.(LIFE CHANGES) Forgive me for again focusing on trains, but a very big line in it says "You can't stop so just hop on the train". To me that is what I did... taking that step... or risk (if you will) Another very important line is "I wouldn't change it for the world" I think many of us would like to , but then it wouldn't feel so good when things are finally better.
I would like to dedicate this to not just one but many special friends on here. She thanked me for sharing my story to remind and encourage others... and there are SO MANY of you who have settled and struggled and put up with verbal abuse and neglect... continuing to give to others while getting nothing back. She reminded me that she appreciated knowing there may be setbacks, but that does not discount taking those chances. I was embarassed every time I did stumble and struggle with a setback... after all, I wanted to show it could be done perfectly. (Perhaops, but not by me. lol) I will say it is worth it in the end.
Unless you do begin to take that first risk and start to face your problems head on, nothing will change. We will stay miserable, unhealthy and dreading each new day. I have my hands full. I am taking steps to clean up and clear out the house... also have several health issues I need to check into (Sadly I am from the old generation... "what you don't know can't hurt you"... well, guess what???) And looking ahead to a few other changes I would like to make. I have alot ahead of me, but look forward to it. (And not to worry, I am not getting overwhelmed, instead, alotting some time each day to work on different issues to chisel away at the huge tasks facing me )
PS I would also hear from someone else very special that I was important to him. These are the moments we are all thankful for and do help to fill us up. We all need to know we are loved and matter.... AND YOU ALL DO!!!
Love and hugs, Kim
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Here's another train song that is oh so good, ''Stop this Train" by John Mayer. I had just gotten this album right around the time my father passed away and I listened to this song and many others over and over. We are all on the constant journey of life. Each stop has the opportunity to bring us pain or pleasure or both and it always provides the opportunity to grow. I feel like thanks to the wonderfully understanding and supportive people on DS, that I have given myself permission to take risks and grow. I have had more self-awareness and am being kind to myself yet honest about what my shortcomings are and I feel really ready to be the best me that I can be. I have just started seeing a new therapist and am about to join a group for DBT. For once I am not scared, I feel empowered and excited. We all deserve to be happy and enjoy our lives. I cannot control how other people behave in my life but I can make myself stronger and control how I react to their behavior. I am so ready to be happy and to not hide or be ashamed of myself. I am not defined by how others have treated me and I am learning to love myself. So glad I have found DS. Glad to have people that I can relate to on this journey. Thank you Kim and everyone for being brave and sharing your ups and downs. It has been very helpful. XOXO to all
At @ bkindbthoughtful.... I am SO very happy to hear this!!! This is the thing...once we go through all this crap and are able to make it through....it makes us more aware and far stronger (in my humble opinion anyway) and for me I want to share and help others. You have truly helped me as well. Thank you. :)