Life as it stands
it's been a few days since I posted an entry on here. this last week has been insane and I needed some time to just chill and get my head straight but if I'm honest, things have been gong from bad to horrible. so here's what been going on:
okay so I went to see a doctor on monday about my knee and I explained that I injured it almost two years ago and that I went to the hospital and all the crap she needed to know. so she told me that she could see some swelling and I'm now on a course of painkillers and ibuprofen gel. this is supposed to help me, but the tablets make me ill and the gel makes my knee sting like crazy. I have to wear my splint all of the time too and I have to go for physiotherapy when it gets better. not only that, my scoliosis has started to come back and I really dont wanna have to go through all the tests and scans I had to have the first time around so fingers crossed, nothing will happen.
I guess the biggest thing that's happened is my family situation. my auntie has been in hospital for almost a week and we're still no closer to findin out what's wrong with her. this happened last year and the hospital put it down to being something viral and this is obviously total bollocks because it's happened again. there's something seriously going wrong with her and it's so frustrating that we can't find out what's going on with her.
as for things at home? they are so not good right now. I'm no longer talking to my mum and my dad doesn't wanna know me at all. I had a huge fallout this weekend with my mother because I asked her to take me for my only university interview and she's only bothered about amy (my sister). this is my future we're talking about and she doesn't give a shit. it's getting to the point where they've both basically said that they'll be glad when this whole thing is over because they're fed up of travelling everywhere. I applied to four universities and they've made me drop out of two of those for them, meaning if I don't get into my chosen institute, my whole life is pretty much over. I can't go anywhere or do anything without going to university, its the foundation of the rest of my life!
and as for me? well, things are not looking good. I've been thinking a lot about relationships and I think it's about time I got into a really good one. I'm coming up to 18 and I've been in one relationship and that did not end well at all :/ I still love the guy to pieces and he's moved on with his life and it breaks my heart everytime he talks about it :( so I've decided that it's time for me to fond a guy or a girl (I'm bisexual!) and just be happy with everything. I'm so fed up with everything right now and I need a complete distraction to get over it.
that's pretty much it. I'm back to school tomorrow so I'll post again when I can.
peace out guys xo.
okay so I went to see a doctor on monday about my knee and I explained that I injured it almost two years ago and that I went to the hospital and all the crap she needed to know. so she told me that she could see some swelling and I'm now on a course of painkillers and ibuprofen gel. this is supposed to help me, but the tablets make me ill and the gel makes my knee sting like crazy. I have to wear my splint all of the time too and I have to go for physiotherapy when it gets better. not only that, my scoliosis has started to come back and I really dont wanna have to go through all the tests and scans I had to have the first time around so fingers crossed, nothing will happen.
I guess the biggest thing that's happened is my family situation. my auntie has been in hospital for almost a week and we're still no closer to findin out what's wrong with her. this happened last year and the hospital put it down to being something viral and this is obviously total bollocks because it's happened again. there's something seriously going wrong with her and it's so frustrating that we can't find out what's going on with her.
as for things at home? they are so not good right now. I'm no longer talking to my mum and my dad doesn't wanna know me at all. I had a huge fallout this weekend with my mother because I asked her to take me for my only university interview and she's only bothered about amy (my sister). this is my future we're talking about and she doesn't give a shit. it's getting to the point where they've both basically said that they'll be glad when this whole thing is over because they're fed up of travelling everywhere. I applied to four universities and they've made me drop out of two of those for them, meaning if I don't get into my chosen institute, my whole life is pretty much over. I can't go anywhere or do anything without going to university, its the foundation of the rest of my life!
and as for me? well, things are not looking good. I've been thinking a lot about relationships and I think it's about time I got into a really good one. I'm coming up to 18 and I've been in one relationship and that did not end well at all :/ I still love the guy to pieces and he's moved on with his life and it breaks my heart everytime he talks about it :( so I've decided that it's time for me to fond a guy or a girl (I'm bisexual!) and just be happy with everything. I'm so fed up with everything right now and I need a complete distraction to get over it.
that's pretty much it. I'm back to school tomorrow so I'll post again when I can.
peace out guys xo.
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