Life as I knew it is over

As I read everyone's journal I see that we are all in the same place, angry, hurt, guilty, sad and missing our love one sooo much.  I keep waiting for this to get better but it doesn't.  I am constantly praying because it's the only way to let it all out I cry and get hysterical at times then I get so tired I just sit and stare.  The hardest thing is that Luis took care of the outside of the house and I really was not made for that I hate it.  There's so much to do don't know which way to turn.  It's super hot in Florida as I come in through the garage I can't even think about touching anything till the weather cools down then where do I begin to unload stuff I get mad that I am stuck with this responsibility.  The life we had is over it was a good one we shared so many good times and laughed a lot I knew I could count on Luis for anything he was more than happy to do things never thought twice me I can't stop thinking.  I hope we can all get some peace soon my mind feels like Times Square always going, I just need it to stop a little.  God help us all.