Letter to self!
Dear Self!
What the hell have you become? Youre a monster in your own skin. I understand you don't want to go to sleep because you're scared of the good dreams you could have about him. That stubborn fool who crushed your heart after your uncle commited suicide, then again after your baby Cin. died. I understand you don't want to dream because when you when you wake up you realize that it's what you long for but he won't love you just for you. Why do you bother to love anyone? You know you are not loved back. Why do you believe in so many things hoping you may actully find peace? No one believes in you!! You can't do anything right at all. No one wants to chase you. You're not worth the fight. You are not worth love. You are not worth hope. I see the scars and I see you in the mirror and you make me sick. The fat that over takes your body. You're eyes are never blue anymore because they are shades of yellow and red and full of sin. Cuts on your skin because you're trying hard to feel something because you are nothing. You're a pitty and a disgrace. You don't make friends because you don't deserve them. People see you and walk by. People bully you because you rock back and fourth trying not to have a breakdown in public. Why can't you be pretty and smart and desired just for you? You make me sick. You're a monster in your own skin...
So why do you still fight to breathe?
From You!
What the hell have you become? Youre a monster in your own skin. I understand you don't want to go to sleep because you're scared of the good dreams you could have about him. That stubborn fool who crushed your heart after your uncle commited suicide, then again after your baby Cin. died. I understand you don't want to dream because when you when you wake up you realize that it's what you long for but he won't love you just for you. Why do you bother to love anyone? You know you are not loved back. Why do you believe in so many things hoping you may actully find peace? No one believes in you!! You can't do anything right at all. No one wants to chase you. You're not worth the fight. You are not worth love. You are not worth hope. I see the scars and I see you in the mirror and you make me sick. The fat that over takes your body. You're eyes are never blue anymore because they are shades of yellow and red and full of sin. Cuts on your skin because you're trying hard to feel something because you are nothing. You're a pitty and a disgrace. You don't make friends because you don't deserve them. People see you and walk by. People bully you because you rock back and fourth trying not to have a breakdown in public. Why can't you be pretty and smart and desired just for you? You make me sick. You're a monster in your own skin...
So why do you still fight to breathe?
From You!
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i feel the same :((
Do you know why you fight? Why you put up with all of this crap? One word...HOPE. Despite what we all say we all have hope and nothing can destroy it.
I know for a fact that you\'re not the only one who feels this way. I feel the same a lot of the time. I don\'t know if it helps, but I believe in you. And I also believe that you will find someone who will love you for who you are and won\'t care about the rest. Just a few days ago you reminded me that no is perfect. You told me to keep my head up and to stay strong and you should too. I\'m always here if you need to talk.