Letters

Dear Kitty,             I know that the desired recipients of these will probably never read them, but I really just want to get a lot of stuff off my chest.I'll write for you soon.Francesca  ........................................................................................................................................ Dear Fraser,               Ok, look, I'm sorry.  I'm sorry for being such a bitch about you; I'm sorry for refusing to listen; I'm sorry for telling you to fuck off...I'm sorry for being a shit friend, when you've been nothing but nice. I shouldn't be; you've done so much for me. You've made me look forwards to Fridays, you can make me happy when I'm down. It was you who introduced me to Open House and to Einaudi, two of my favorite things now. Hector went to you when he found my blog because he knew that I would listen to you, and you did talk to me about it. You've given my your support for so long, and I've just thrown it all back in your face. And for that I know that I don't deserve to be friends with you ever again.               But I miss it. I love being able to talk to you about anything and to play silly games, and to be able to laugh with you. That's what I miss so much at the moment; just being friends. And I know I don't deserve it at all, but I really do want to be friends again.You probably won't, and I don't blame you. But thank you so much for everything that you've ever done for me. You'll always mean so much to me, because you've been such a good friend and such a nice person, even if we're not friends.Fran ......................................................................................................................................... Dear Hector,               I'm sorry for storming off like that yesterday. You've always been so nice to me; you even came to Open House for me; thank you so much. You've always been there for me, and it was you who actually found my blog, and you were worried. Thank you for worrying about me. Just thank you for everything. You've helped me so much, and you've just been such a great friend, and for that you will always be so special and important to me. Just thank you so much. For everything. Thank you for making me look forward to Latin; thank you for coming to see Fenny and Pop every Thursday. Just thank you for everything that you've ever done for me. I couldn't possibly list them all here, but thank you so much for all of them.               You are quite possible the nicest person I have ever met; you've always been there for me. Even when I stormed off, you thought that it was your fault. It wasn't; I was just being an over-sensitive twat. You've done so much for me; you've taught me that I am not alone and that the world can be a happy place.So thank you so much for everything. Really.Fran ......................................................................................................................................... Dear Samson,                I'm sorry for writing that on Isla's wall. I wasn't thinking and it was a really, really stupid thing to do. I've just been such an idiot, and I'm so sorry that I've hurt you. I didn't mean to, and it was just such a stupid thing for me to say; I wasn't thinking at all. I was just trying to cheer up Isla, and I didn't think that you'd read it. I'm so sorry for writing it. You've always been such a nice person to me, and now I've ruined everyhing. In RAF, it was you who checked up on me in the dark, you who helped me put up my basher. You always helped me so much, especially when you found out that I SH. You were so understanding...and now I've ruined everything. I'm sorry for just being such a bitch. And you do deserve her; you deserve the nicest person possible. Someone really pretty, funny, clever, caring...and kind (I'm not saying that Isla isn't, if that's what you're thinking)                I am so sorry for upsetting you; I wish that I'd never written that. It was just stupid and thoughtless. I know that you'll probably never want to be friends with me ever again, but, either way, you have made such an impact on my life, for which I can only say; thank you so very much. Even if we never speak again, I will never, ever forget you and the things that you have done for me.I really, truly am sorry. It was such a silly thing to do. And thank you so much. For everything.Really.Fran