learning better

learning a better way to deal with things. I came home from the office and did some errands and then went to the bakery to grab a coffee. Getting the coffee is pretty much a daily thing for me. The coffee is good - and going out and being around people is great too. I mentioned that while at the job this morning my mind went wonky - and after I came home and drank the coffee - I thought about this. I started to feel the sting of missed connections with the people at the bakery. I felt singled out - which seems to happen to me - I felt a victim of my mind's lability and somehow theorized I am always singled out because of MI and not perfect...and started to 'amp up' feeling I was different. BUT better so, I just decided to kind of owned it.
I thought I just need to manage my emotional life - different as it may be - individual more like it - - do my best - and keep moving forward. Everyone has to manage their feelings - some have more stability than others. Every body is managing something - has a life to manage -a disability for some too - and as you go through it every day - there's management. So like not connecting with the bakery workers and feeling like it's because I am different whatever!.. I concluded I really couldn't care less. I am trying the best I can and in fact I didn't really do anything wrong - they're just kind of who they are - and I get along with the manager there - so it's all good. Now I am at home and feeling just fortified and affirmed that I am just managing myself and watching some tv and having snacks before I go out to yoga.
I don't know if people think that some how in therapy a magical epiphany will come to them and they'll more into a new person. I think I probably thought that - I think what I have REALIZED though is that it (therapy) is teaching me 'this is reality - and this is what I have to get familiar with managing." I own it - it may suck at times as I know I am different - but we're all managing something and still living life - working and playing - living and loving. Namaste guys! xoxox