latley

i havent wrote  a journal in a very long time. there has been so much going on in my life. i havent been the best im kinda slipping again and i dont think i have ever hated myself as much as i do now. i cant do anything and i absolutley hate it . i need to lose weight because it is fucking my life up. like its getting to the point where i feel like im just going to collapse... my head is so messed up and i have been so emotional and bi polar i feel bad for my gf hahah shes great though seriously shes my best friend. i miss my family so much i feel alone like i have no family it really sucks. i havent really talked to anyone on here so if you wanna chat  message me:)