last nights journal entry, but only today, lol

Well, last night I was not feeling well at all.  My stomach was very sour and my head was spinning and pounding all day long.  The search continues for a new job.  I have applied for so many jobs I lost count.  I pray continually about it.  I get to see my children today, finally! I miss my family so much.  I am sitting here in chick fila waiting for them to arrive.  I hope that Sarah is going to come too.  I miss her as well. I'm very nervous right now.  don't know don't, buy I am. I pray for continued guidance and aks for tons of support.  I filed for conciliation counseling and my response to the divorce this week.  I asked that he divorce be dismissed because the marriage is not irretrievably broken.  I hope that we both go to counseling and she finds out that it is fixable and she wants to start going to counseling with me.  I am still going to counseling myself and will do it regardless of what happens.  For once in my life I feel good about myself.  getting good sleep is helping me out very well.  since I was diagnosed with ptsd and placed on some meds,  I have been getting very good sleep.  I have worked a lot on my anger, and has it under control!!!! (for the most part). I still find myself swearing and cursing when I'm upset, buti catch myself all the time now.   I just simply feel good about myself lately.  I still feel bad that I have caused my wife to leave and how I have acted.  But there is a sense of new found hope that I have.  Once again, continue to pray as I have.