Last night was Okay... Until....

I was hopeful, and feeling good about last night for most of it... that is until the phone call. 

Any "  normal " person would never flip out like that over ONE damn phone call, but then again... He's NOT " normal " ! 

Granted, I do understand - ( in a small degree ) - that he doesn't like to be interrupted when he's playing his Xbox 360 games. 

But HOW do I have control over WHO calls during that time ??!! 

The obvious answer is, " I DON'T have control over who calls then ! "

I kept it as short as possible, but even that wasn't good enough. 

As much as he wants to think so, I did NOT ask him to leave the room while I was on the phone ! ... much less, actually hide in the bedroom, or go OUT during the phone call ! He " claimed " on the phone after he had stormed out, that He's tired of having to hide whenever my family comes over at the last minute with hardly any notice, and that he shouldn't have to hide for them, or for phone calls ! " I did say ONE thing about any of this last night ! I did NOT ask him to hide... or ANY of that ! 

Besides, my supposed family that " stops by so often unexpectedly " does NOT do this as much as he was trying to make it sound ! 

The ONLY RARE times that I've had family - ( meaning Joanne ) - come over suddenly, has been because of my birthday, OR Christmas ! ... so.. OMG !!!.... That's 2 times a YEAR !!!!!... TWO DAMN TIMES !!!!!

The way he was making it sound, it was like he was claiming they come over 5 times a week, or something ! 

The ONLY time that " may have " been even remotely true - in the slightest - was when Mom was alive, and Dad was still driving ! 

Even then... I had EVERY RIGHT IN THE DAMN WORLD TO VISIT WITH MY PARENTS WHENEVER THEY WANTED TO STOP BY !!!!!

At that time my parents were helping me out financially every month - ( not a lot, but it made a difference ) - and I did not want to give my Dad a reason to stop helping, IF he had found out that Ray was here ! Sure Ray was helping financially also, BUT the way he goes through money - ( buying clothes for himself, and dvds and / or games almost every time he went out ) - I felt we still needed my parents' financial help as well ! 

But of course asking Ray to think " logically " is like trying to get a 4 year old to take a high school math test... and expect them to get an A on it ! 

Logic, common sense, understanding, compassion, empathy; those things are simply not in his vocabulary at all, much less never involved with his way of thinking about things.

Anyways... BACK to the phone call last night. 

It was James - my old high school friend. 

He needed to talk to a friend, and he thought of me.

I wanted more than anything to talk to him about his issue / problem, but with Ray flying suddenly into an all-out raging fit, there was no way I could talk to James right then. I told him I'd talk to him tomorrow - which is today - Thurs. 1 / 24 / 19. I'm hoping that at some point Ray will go Out for awhile, so I have a chance to call James, and have a real talk with him. 

I felt bad about having to suddenly hang up on James, but Ray gave me NO other choice. 

It was literally either I hung up, or Ray ended up beating me up ! 

I'm so sick of this ! In what reality is it " OKAY " for him to talk to WHOEVER on his cell phone whenever he wants to, but I get ONE DAMN phone call on my home phone, and I'm in the " wrong " ! ... BULLSHIT !!!!