Last night was NOT good

Last night - Wed. 11 / 7 - started off well enough, but it quickly went straight to hell in the blink of an eye. As usual the so-called reason for his raging fit was not a good one - at least I don't feel it was, but he felt justified. It centered around me making a comment about the women he was probably calling on his walk. I should have known that he wouldn't like it that I knew - even without him admitting it - what he was " really " doing on his walk. I'm not a fool like he loves to call me so often. Thinking about last night, I feel strongly that the saying, " Me thinks you protest TOO much ! ", applied to his rage at what I had said. After all, IF he hadn't made any  " phone calls " then he wouldn't have been so upset, since he would have known that I was completely wrong. But as it was... I had " caught " him, in a sense, red-handed. Still... all of that chat should NOT have blown up into a full-blown rage with him threatening to hit me ! 

I had to BEG and PLEAD for him to NOT HIT ME !!!!! 

IF he TRULY loves Me, then this would NOT have happened ! At least this is my gut feeling about this kind of situation. He had about a million and one excuses, as usual. That was nothing new at all. He NEVER apologizes ! But instead he always does his best to turn it around on ME, and make it seem like it was MY FAULT that it happened at all ! BULL SHIT !!!!

He claimed that I " should have " kept my mouth shut, and NOT made ANY comments about someone I don't know anything about ! That was a bunch of crap, because how could I help making comments when he told me that this " woman " was going to come to Florida, and hurt me !!!!! 

I was simply defending myself by saying that IF " she " came ANYWHERE NEAR ME I would call the COPS ! 

A while later - once he had calmed down - He made even MORE excuses by saying... " You should know that that will NEVER happen, because how many times have I said that sort of bull in the past ??, and it's NEVER happened ! " 

This is supposed to make me feel better ????? 

REALLY ????!!! 

I can't believe that he honestly thinks that this " erases " the fact that he claimed someone would hurt me ! 

PLUS... to say that " You should have kept your mouth shut ! " .... as a reason / excuse for him threatening to hurt me.... is NOT RIGHT.... and does NOT make what he did, OKAY ! .... and does NOT make the whole thing MY FAULT like he believes it does !

His sense of reality is SO WARPED... it's completely UNREAL.... and NOT RIGHT AT ALL !

I realize that he had a terrible start to his life, but at some point he's got to learn to put all of that behind him and live his life the " RIGHT WAY ", and NOT the way that he was shown when he was first starting out.