Last Month

So this month, i turn 35, move back in with my parents (thank God they are allowing me and are supportive of me) and file for divorce.  Exciting stuff.  
Last night had a heated talk with the husband and well, long story short I am tired of wallowing in a pool of emotional sadness.  He is so amazing, he just moves forward.  He says he cares but he isn't going to dwell on our situation and he will live his life.  He is going to move out of the city next month, start a new job and probably find a wife fast.  I want to do that.  I mean not look for someone, God willing that will just happen when its time but i want to move forward.  
I want to pack my stuff, wave bye and do my thing.  I do not want to spend days in bed confused, still and unhappy, i have done that all my life and i am so exhausted from it, i know now that behaving that way is a waste of time.  I dont want to do that.  I want to live, like Joey did (may he rest in peace)
Joey was amazing, he lived daily, when he passed (almost a month ago) all i could think was his death is a loss but he was an amazing person, he never complained he was always occupied with someone, something family, all the time.  Joey died 33, single but happy with who he was, what he had, what he did.  Life is soooo short, why prune up in a pool of sadness, there is no point!! I want to be like Joey, I want to be like my husband and move forward, I want to be a good person, live for God and enjoy my days.
This move, divorce is the start to endless possibilities. I do not want to be stuck or sink by my own hands, I want to live live live!!