Last call for the trip to bountiful

I tend to go inward -

but now I am also remembering to be aware of the responsibilities

and the relationships around me -

it's like two bubbles 

I love being taken out of my realm of experience

to see the way and experience the way other people

live...

 

I also know I am quite experiencing a different

sense of home right now - to be based in Maryland

and to have the option of moving to Oklahoma -

it definitely is a different sense of place

and home. It's a great blessing to have.

 

On another topic,

 

It’s weird, now that I am a Father here there’s kind of an implicit dignity I must comport. I can do it. People come here for a reason and I can reassure them. People look to you for the example, reassurance and representation. I’m sensing though at moments of isolation for myself and out of habit too there’s a want in me to be of service and yet it also seems undignified to some here when i take on a mundane task. There’s a conflict it seems at the crossroads of the two. I guess my sense or aspect of service is changing and I have to recognize that?