Knocked down again
I can’t believe it I just keep getting hit and knocked down. Is it a fucking wonder I want to live this shitty life of mine anymore. I just got a letter today stating that in 3 days they are going to tow my car off my parking spot because I haven’t renewed my sticker. The letter is dated April 30, but they just put it in my box today, why did it take them 4 days to get it too me. I haven’t renewed my sticker because I just don’t have the money, I am on disability and had to stop driving it because I couldn't afford it anymore. I have had plans to sell it, but my daughter was hoping I would keep it for her to drive. And now I've discovered I can't get my sticker because it needs an emissions test this year and last time I to get the emission test it ended up costing me $650. I'm screwed no matter what way I turn. I don't have any money for the emission test and get the sticker. I don't know what I'm going to do. I’m going to be calling the landlord and tenant act here and see what is the reasonable amount of notice. I am hoping it is more than 7 days (3 with how long it took them to get it to me; hand delivered). I will then be calling the office depending on what they say and I will also be asking if they have handed out the same notice to the people who have cars on the lot with no license plate at all. If it really is only 7 days notice I am royally screwed because I read that someone had their's towed and had to pay thousands of dollars to get it out as time accumulated. I’m sorry but this has really upset me and honestly I feel completely suicidal. I was already starting to feel this way with my depression getting worse and wondering how I was ever going to save for Sophie’s surgery. How much pain she is in and just paying for her shots each week is killing me. On top of it I’m in constant pain with my fibromyalgia and constantly tired. I just don’t think I can do this life anymore. I’ve had enough and don’t want to live like this anymore. My future is just too bleak. There is no light at the end of the tunnel.
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Dearest Friend, Try, and I know especially today, it\'s not going to be easy....just deal with today, don\'t get into the tomorrow\'s before they get here.
You can get at least some info about the car business today. Pull out your rental agreement and see what it says about leaving your car parked.
As I said on the board, maybe one of your nice neighbor men could try to jump start it, the battery might still be good, just dead from not being started for an extended period of time.
Maybe it would be just a technical matter of moving it to a different parking spot? or are you each assigned a specific one only?
Just find out as much info as you can about what your options are for today...you might just find something(s) that will work in your favor.
I know only to well how you\'re feeling, I wear those shoes to often my own self.
Give yourself credit for all that you have overcome already and if you are honest with yourself, you will see you\'ve accomplished a LOT on your own.
You will get through this, little by little, but you will.
((((((gentle hugs and much hope))))))))))
Thank you so much! I sent you an email and updated the info on the board. I struggle so much with just staying in the day. I guess that is why my anxiety is so bad. I used to be a fairly strong and confident woman and now I just feel weak and useless.
Hi mystie,
Very, very sorry that I didn\'t get to comment on this sooner, first of all.
I realize that by now those three days have passed, but how much luck did you have with the plan you mentioned in this journal? It sounds to me like you at least had an idea of what to try to do about this, and I hope that something happened that was a positive result for you on this. It really makes you feel bad to see you still struggling to handle things like this, never mind function day to day.
immarcie had the best ideas about what else you could do, there\'s nothing I can add there, but I\'m wondering: I happen to know a friend of mine here on DS -- I can tell you which one privately if you want to know because I don\'t think it\'s a good idea to share it here -- who also has fibromyalgia (recently diagnosed) and I was wondering if maybe having someone like her to talk to would be helpful to you. Can I tell her a little bit about you?