KNIFE

My depression and thoughts have gotten worse...my um parents got these news, shiny, stainless steel knives. They even come with there own covers right... when I say my thoughts have gotten worse I mean. When I saw these new knives my first reaction/thought? Stabbing my self or! Slicing my wrist...I mean it was instant...almost scared me...almost... they were so clean and shiny...I wanted to ruin it.. I wanted to ruin the pureness of the knives... they were too clean. I feel suffocated in this life. I feel my time is over here.