Kind of numb

I did cry today I admit it. Today, has been 60 days for me and it was kind of hard for me to get to this point. I found one of the last pictures of my husband and posted it on here. He was my everything and my world. I struggle each day but I get though it people know what I am going though so they forgive me when I am mean or horrible to them. I know this is not a nightmare anymore. I wonder was I ever suppose to have been happy? Everytime I would be happy at a time in my life something horrible would happen. When I met my husband we had 2 years of luck I was trying to get pregnant and in 2006 I was told I had Cancer so I would have to have a hysterectomy. That threw me into a depression he was the only one who could help me out of it. Then he lost his mom and grandfather in the same year and then finally he goes suddenly this year. What am I not suppose to be married?

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Girldawg1
Girldawg1

A nice picture! I\'ve thought similar things, such as \"I guess we were just TOO happy.\" I don\'t think there is a too happy - nothing is so good that it can\'t be better, or so bad that it can\'t get worse. I haven\'t solved the great mystery of why we go thru these trials. Folks telling me to \"just think of all the wonderful memories\" doesn\'t make it any easier either. Peace