Keeping my cool

I'm trying not to let things get to me at this point. Not being able to take my medications because of being sick is making my symptoms worse. I almost blew up at my boyfriend for going over to a friends house. I feel so alone and seeking help, which he recommended in the first place. I even told him that I need his support. He's happy that i'm trying to find help and an outlet for my problems, but I wish he'd be a little more involved. Instead he leaves. I've been in the apartment by myself all day long and cooped up. I wanted some human interaction, someone I could conversate with. But he left with two beers and said when he's done drinking them he'll be home! I'm not talking little can beers or average sized bottles either. Not to mention there's a blizzard outside and he's going to drive after he's been drinking which he knows I don't condone. I feel like he has to escape from me. We had a good starting discussion about getting through this and him being there for me, then this as soon as I said I felt better. I feel very fragile and vulnerable at this point. I just want to feel normal.