Keeping busy
Jeff,
Feels like the days are just flying by. I try to stop long enough to catch my breath but some days there just doesn't seem like there is enough time in the day. I'm not sure if that is a good thing or a bad one.
Your girls are leaving for Indiana tomorrow to take some of your ashes to your home town. I am doing my best to keep in touch with them and help where I can. But I don't know that we will remain close. You and I were together for such a short time and they had just started to accept that I was in your life. I will try to keep in touch but I can not force them to be in my life. I can only hope that they will. It just seems weird that after 2 months, all of your family has forgotten about me. No calls from your folks or brothers or daughters. I guess I could call them and see how they are doing too, but it just seems weird to me that nobody from your family would check on your wife? I am so lucky to have my family here close by. They all loved you so much. My Dad really misses you. He has been back out arrowhead hunting and I know misses your company. The boys have missed you too. They are doing okay, but we all have our Jeffie moments when you are missed and tears are shed. You were a great influence on them in the short 4 years you were with us. They grew up to be such good young men because you made them responsible and accountable. I guess God sent you to us just when he knew we needed you most. I just wish he had let you stay with us longer.
I have been able to get through my days without too many tears now. I still cry everyday, just not as often. I miss you so much and I just can't imagine myself ever loving another man the way I love you baby. I know you said you wanted me to live and love and move on, but I just can't iimagine that my heart will ever be ready to do that again. I guess you will have to lead the way for me to find the man who could ever replace you if and when that time comes. Til then, I am still your wife and my heart belongs to you.
I love you and miss you Jeff.
Liz
Feels like the days are just flying by. I try to stop long enough to catch my breath but some days there just doesn't seem like there is enough time in the day. I'm not sure if that is a good thing or a bad one.
Your girls are leaving for Indiana tomorrow to take some of your ashes to your home town. I am doing my best to keep in touch with them and help where I can. But I don't know that we will remain close. You and I were together for such a short time and they had just started to accept that I was in your life. I will try to keep in touch but I can not force them to be in my life. I can only hope that they will. It just seems weird that after 2 months, all of your family has forgotten about me. No calls from your folks or brothers or daughters. I guess I could call them and see how they are doing too, but it just seems weird to me that nobody from your family would check on your wife? I am so lucky to have my family here close by. They all loved you so much. My Dad really misses you. He has been back out arrowhead hunting and I know misses your company. The boys have missed you too. They are doing okay, but we all have our Jeffie moments when you are missed and tears are shed. You were a great influence on them in the short 4 years you were with us. They grew up to be such good young men because you made them responsible and accountable. I guess God sent you to us just when he knew we needed you most. I just wish he had let you stay with us longer.
I have been able to get through my days without too many tears now. I still cry everyday, just not as often. I miss you so much and I just can't imagine myself ever loving another man the way I love you baby. I know you said you wanted me to live and love and move on, but I just can't iimagine that my heart will ever be ready to do that again. I guess you will have to lead the way for me to find the man who could ever replace you if and when that time comes. Til then, I am still your wife and my heart belongs to you.
I love you and miss you Jeff.
Liz
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