Keep The change Reflections again
In life changer #3, it asks several questions, so this one will be long! But enjoy!
What messages have you recieved from other people about yourself? I have been told that i am an @$$hole and am angry all the time (by my wife Sarah). I have been told that i have had PTSD, before i was diagnosed with it and i have been told i am a bad husband and emotionally abusive( My mother in-law, Liz Garrett) I have also been told that i do not communicate well, (my mother, wife sarah, family and friends, and Mother in law).
The messages affected me before, and i attempted to change them. But i did not have any follow through, and when things were better, i thought they were false. I believed that those were not the case, as things between sarah and i were a lot better for awhile.
for the next scriptures, i am to write down what god tells me about me;
Psalm 139:13-14: "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; you works are wonderfull, i know that full well." I am wonderful.
John 3:16; "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." God loves me.
Isiah 43:4; "Since you are Precious and honored in my sight, and because i love you, i will give you men in exchange for you, and people in exchange for your life." I am Valued by god.
Isiah 41:10; "So do not fear, For i am with you; do not be dismayed, for i am your God. i will strengthen you and help you; i will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Joshua 1:5,9; "As I was with Moses, so i will be with you; i will never leave you or forsake you... Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." I am never alone, and god is always with me.
Ephisians 2:8-10; "For it is by grace you have bee saved, Through faith- and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God- not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, in which God prepared in advance for us to do." I dont have to earn God's love, he accepts me for who I am and what i was created for.
Summarize the truths God tells me about me. I dont fully understand this part. From what the scripture says, at least how i percieve it, it tells me that God loves me because i am wonderful. i do not have to earn that from him, and i was created to do works for him.
When i compare what i was told about myself and what god tells me about me, it isnt even close. I was told that i am, summed up, an angry man. God tells me that he loves me for me.
I need to start rejecting the old messages and embracing the truth about me: I am not an angry man anymore. I am a good man. I need to start believing that i can and will be a good man from here out. I know that will be very hard to do, because Sarah brings it up when i do talk with her. I will pray more and harder about it.
I feel a little justified in moving my fixing me bar by 5%, becuase with knowledge comes appreciation. I am more knowledgable about my issues, and how to adress them specifically.
What messages have you recieved from other people about yourself? I have been told that i am an @$$hole and am angry all the time (by my wife Sarah). I have been told that i have had PTSD, before i was diagnosed with it and i have been told i am a bad husband and emotionally abusive( My mother in-law, Liz Garrett) I have also been told that i do not communicate well, (my mother, wife sarah, family and friends, and Mother in law).
The messages affected me before, and i attempted to change them. But i did not have any follow through, and when things were better, i thought they were false. I believed that those were not the case, as things between sarah and i were a lot better for awhile.
for the next scriptures, i am to write down what god tells me about me;
Psalm 139:13-14: "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; you works are wonderfull, i know that full well." I am wonderful.
John 3:16; "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." God loves me.
Isiah 43:4; "Since you are Precious and honored in my sight, and because i love you, i will give you men in exchange for you, and people in exchange for your life." I am Valued by god.
Isiah 41:10; "So do not fear, For i am with you; do not be dismayed, for i am your God. i will strengthen you and help you; i will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Joshua 1:5,9; "As I was with Moses, so i will be with you; i will never leave you or forsake you... Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." I am never alone, and god is always with me.
Ephisians 2:8-10; "For it is by grace you have bee saved, Through faith- and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God- not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, in which God prepared in advance for us to do." I dont have to earn God's love, he accepts me for who I am and what i was created for.
Summarize the truths God tells me about me. I dont fully understand this part. From what the scripture says, at least how i percieve it, it tells me that God loves me because i am wonderful. i do not have to earn that from him, and i was created to do works for him.
When i compare what i was told about myself and what god tells me about me, it isnt even close. I was told that i am, summed up, an angry man. God tells me that he loves me for me.
I need to start rejecting the old messages and embracing the truth about me: I am not an angry man anymore. I am a good man. I need to start believing that i can and will be a good man from here out. I know that will be very hard to do, because Sarah brings it up when i do talk with her. I will pray more and harder about it.
I feel a little justified in moving my fixing me bar by 5%, becuase with knowledge comes appreciation. I am more knowledgable about my issues, and how to adress them specifically.
Replies
You\'re doing some good work, Will! Keep it up. God does love you. He\'s helping you to become the man you were meant to be. Life interferes with that process, sometimes. You\'re on the right track. Be patient with yourself. It will take time, but every great journey does.
As usual, your words make me smile to feel hope. I am trying my absolute best. Thank you.
1st: Thank you for sharing these scriptures, I am familiar with them but I know it took you time to find them and write them out.
2nd: You are right about believing the scriptures. God does love you more than anything. I have scripture I meditate on every day, like God knows the plans he has for me to give me a hope and future and that He can work all things together for my good. Right now I have a hard time believing it but I believe that if I continue to meditate on those scriptures that I will eventually. Continue to meditate on your scriptures and God can bring out the good in your life and make you a happier person.
Last: If you don\'t have a church, I would like to suggest you find one. I know it can seem preachy or boring, but genuinely there are times when I have had a lightbulb go off listening to a sermon and realized that I needed to change something or apologize for something, etc. Going to church does genuinely make me a better person. I\'m not perfect, I still slip out a cuss word, get angry, can be difficult, and make mistakes but at least I\'m trying...