Keep the Change reflections
In exercise 3 in the book " keep the change" it asks me to take a few moments to ask the following questions.
Am i valued? I think that i am. By whom? I think my children value me. i am unsure of my wife. I use to believe she valued me, but not at this time. Am i important? Yes. to whom? I know i am important to my children, and i suspect my wife. I know my children love me and look up to me. My miss getting into the 'i love you more' arguments with my son, lol. Am i ok? Right now, i dont think i am. I know i have issues that i am dealing with within myself. Am i capable? Yes, i believe that i am capable of doing whatever i need to do. I have already proven i can implement change into my life as i have already done that in two short weeks.
How much do i doubt myself? I doubt myself a lot. i am always wondering if i did this right, or does my wife really care about me, or why do people see good in me. what am i uncertain about? I am very uncertain about my marriage. I really do not want to lose my wife. I love her and am absolutley certain that i will do anything for her. i am uncertain of how she feels, as she has shut me completley out of hers and my kids lifes. What do i fear? I fear divorce. I fear losing my wife, especially to someone else. Right now i fear that she isnt seeing any change in me, even though i have done some changing in the past few weeks. i am not changed 100%, and that will take some time. I just am so afraid that she will not see any change and still want this divorce. i am afraid of failing also. I have changed for a little while when she came back, but i fell rigth back into the path of 'the wicked.'
Am i valued? I think that i am. By whom? I think my children value me. i am unsure of my wife. I use to believe she valued me, but not at this time. Am i important? Yes. to whom? I know i am important to my children, and i suspect my wife. I know my children love me and look up to me. My miss getting into the 'i love you more' arguments with my son, lol. Am i ok? Right now, i dont think i am. I know i have issues that i am dealing with within myself. Am i capable? Yes, i believe that i am capable of doing whatever i need to do. I have already proven i can implement change into my life as i have already done that in two short weeks.
How much do i doubt myself? I doubt myself a lot. i am always wondering if i did this right, or does my wife really care about me, or why do people see good in me. what am i uncertain about? I am very uncertain about my marriage. I really do not want to lose my wife. I love her and am absolutley certain that i will do anything for her. i am uncertain of how she feels, as she has shut me completley out of hers and my kids lifes. What do i fear? I fear divorce. I fear losing my wife, especially to someone else. Right now i fear that she isnt seeing any change in me, even though i have done some changing in the past few weeks. i am not changed 100%, and that will take some time. I just am so afraid that she will not see any change and still want this divorce. i am afraid of failing also. I have changed for a little while when she came back, but i fell rigth back into the path of 'the wicked.'
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