Keep holding on

So here lately things have gotten better my boyfriend started to notice that I was not in a good place and is now keeping a very close eye on me along with everyone at work. Oh and I got a new job working at fareway. It's alot nicer then hyvee. The people seem to care alot more about their employees. 

I did almost take a bottle of pills a few weeks ago but couldn't get myself to take them when I got a text for my bf saying that he loved me and all the good things in life. I still think about killing myself or what would happen if I was in a car accident. Then it wouldn't be my fault so no one could say that I was just trying to get attention or something like that but again my brain won't let me. So all in all I'm doing pretty well I'm holding on for the most part.